Mroz4k

It doesnt help that I dont know how to post and explain myself briefly in English. That is why my posts are always so long. This gives people the idea of me, trying to "hide" something in there, which is not true, it is just a biased notion people get. English is my third language, Ive learned to use it by using its rich vocabulary, this makes it very difficult for me to get my point across briefly. I dont use it to converse daily in speech, I only use it on the internet daily, through reading and watching TV shows. Daily use of speech is neccesary to get into the routine of getting your point across briefly.

I am straight up terrified to post a single comment anywhere on the forums.

It takes 3 warning points that never expire to obtain a permanent ban on the forums. I have gotten two of those points in the last temporary ban for something I have not done. Instead, for many days I was berated and harassed by a different forum member, first directly through messages, then later via endless reporting of my posts (at least I suspect so, there is no way to prove that). Or, it may have been a biased admin, monitoring me so closely & pushing me with endless public warnings just to unnerve me until I did something that could be considered against rules. I don't even want to consider that possibility, cause if that's true, I have earned myself a permanent ban...

There is nothing I can do to report such harassment. But instead, my personal advice to help others improve their forum content is being reviewed as moderating & telling people how to post (HOW??! Never did I say "you have to do this!", I made a suggestion to do it differently, and explained why!), and the fact that I get more influence on the forums is considered as "establishing authority" on the forums. (I have no authority here!!! And I cant stop that I get more influence because I post more, that is how it works. Experienced community member is a form of influencer). What is even more sad is that I used this influence for good things, to help breathe in life to the very stagnant forums by encouraging more discusssions and for people to spend more time in here. (Unlike the same person I suspect of mass-reporting me, who has been going around, claiming things Hinterland said without pointing into where they said it, which is an actual moderating, and showing their influence around as a badge of authority to boost their ego.)

I have integrity, I made promises not to escalate things with this said user to prevent escalation, and for that, I earned myself harassment and eventually ban. Meanwhile this person continues to defile this community and noone can say anything about it. 

For months I was a part of this community and it was never a problem. This person comes back and suddenly, everything I do is a problem. Id say the cause of all the problems would be the "recent" change, the person coming back, the cause and effect would point towards that. 

If I do get banned, the rest of you be careful. It is just a matter of time till this person picks a different target, perhaps because you upset them, and this whole situation will repeat again with a different victim. Free speech posting is no longer as safe on the forums as it used to be.

I would ask for more transparency with reporting, how it is done, how it is considered, what are the chief decision factors. And abuse of reporting to harass and berate others for revenge or other personal bias should be strictly prohibited by the Forum rules, othervise this cannot be a friendly community, because it takes one angry, self-righteous prick to mass-report all you do to put the admins on your back and strangle you with warnings and endless observations. How can a normal person not feel depressed, stressed and desperate when everything they do is being put under the microscope?

I thought taking more time off from getting unbanned before posting would help, I slept twice since then and I dont feel any closer to knowing what to do. 

I admit that I am scared, desperate, stressed and I feel abused and violated, and hopeless because there is nothing I can do about it.

I am back. I am too tired, too upset and too pissed off to say more about it at this time.

By the same evening, I was already home with every last bit of meat and quarter. Ive chosen to forgo the nights sleep and harvest the quarters with my bare hands. By the morning, every last bit of meat was out on the porch, waiting to be used. I do believe I am set on food for a decent amount of time.

Next morning I made my way to the Trappers. A wolf crossed my path, he was quickly pacified with an arrow headshot, and in turn processed into scraps. 

This gave me an idea to kill the Trappers bear as well. It was not easy, it took the entire day and part of the night, but after three shots that made him bleed (yet miraculously survive) I finally killed the beast. I did not forget my task either - so as I was cooking old bear steaks (leftovers from previous bear), I made some torches and went to loot the cave for respawned coal. Measly 10 lumps. Dissapointing. 

Made a short fire in the Trappers to make a drink, then rest through the night to go search for the bear.

Found it fairly soon, it was gentleman enough (after all the trouble it put me through to kill it) to die on top of the peak of a hill above its lair. 

No coat time just yet. Turns out that when I left for the trip, Ive used up the last of my cured guts. Im certain Trappers have some cured, but I will have to first make a trip over there... which is the goal for tommorow. Today, we are finishing up on all the relevant survival knowledge. Ive finished level 3 mending, the books helped a lot - already almost half way to getting level 4. This should help with keeping my equipment in tip-top shape without having to waste an awful lot of materials. 

Ive arranged my gun related skill books neatly on the desk - while I dont need them yet, they can wait for me there.


Still wish Id find more. There is still some potential left in Pleasant Valley, I think, and definitedly in Forlorn Muskeg. Too bad the latter is so dangerous... yet I may chance a trip there anyway, in case I need to forge, or at least get a decent supply of Coal from a close-by spot. 

Which also constitutes my side-goal for tommorow´s trip to Trappers - to visit the cave there and collect on some Coal supplies.

Next morning it was windy, but not a single living thing. The music also stopped. Just dead quiet, my steps and wind blowing. I safely made it to the Office with my load of meat. I was pretty well rested still, so I used the rest of the day, looking for the runaway wolf. So I at least collected some sticks. Gonna try again tommorow. In the evening I finished my last cooking book, and read a bit of sewing primer by the moonlight, till the midnight came and I went to rest up. 

Next morning I spent looking for the wolf, unsuccesfully. The weather was not very cooperative. Still, I scouted most of the general area where Id expect the wolf to die, and no luck. It could have probably ran a lot further then Id think... 

During my travels, however, I have literally stumbed upon a Preppers hatch! A lot of very useful, valuable equipment was in there. Even though I dont expect to use it any time soon, I took one of the rifles found there with me, to carry it home to the Office. Took basically everything else. In the evening, I did more studying, and went to bed - determined that the arrow I left lodged in the wolf is now gone forever, till maybe I randomly stumble upon it ages later. I guess this means I will have to go forge some new ones.

Although the Muskeg in this game is very deadly, I think I will travel to the forge there next, but not anytime soon. Both of my bear skins are now cured, which means I may start working on a new piece of equipment.

I am deliberating whether to craft a bedroll, or a coat. Most likely I will go with the coat, though.

My plan to collect up the hunt has went well at first. After my 2nd night at Ravine ended, I started walking towards home with full backpack of my gear from Coastal & Desolation point, and a couple of fresh deer steaks as well. More of cooked & uncooked meat was waiting at me by the entrance of the cave at Ravine connector subregion. 

The way to clear the road went okay, too. Two wolves decided to step in my way - they both ended up dead. One was killed and quartered right away by the trailer camp in front of the Dam. The other from derailment got arrow stuck in the side, and whimpered away somewhere into the hills. I shall go searching for it in the next day. By roughly 2 PM, I arrived safely to the Office.

I quickly removed much of my loot, even took off some of my clothes - to travel lightly. I still took my bow, arrows, tools and bedroll - one never knows... On the way back to Ravine Deer cave Ive collected sticks to build up my hunting spot fire making reserves. I stored these sticks into the backpack in the rabbit grove in Ravine subregion. By around 5 PM, I was back at my hunting spot, very tired.

Took a 2 hour nap, loaded all the meat (roughly 24 kg of it) and went on the way home to the Camp Office. As I was passing the quarters of the wolf and stepped on the bridge by the dam, the sun hid behind the mountains, and I noticed a strange shapes in the sky.

Of course.

Aurora. Havent seen one in 10 days while traveling, and now when I carry three worths of deer meat, all of sudden here it is.

Okay. Change of plans. Spending the night at the Dam - dropped the meat, and took & processed the quarters of the wolf, as well as an old deer carcass that was still lying there (despite it being a day of 60 or so). Surprisingly, the meat of the deer was still sorta edible, so I cooked a liter of water and this deer steak, as I watched from the safety of the fence the aurora descending in all its frightening glory...