Wonderland wanderer

There is... A goddamn virus. 
What are you feel? We'll survive? Or not?...

There's someone, who see a Strange Dreams?

Very Very Thank You All!! Very thanks for understanding!
Very Very Thank to Raph for a masterpiece he created!
"but where is a case, Astrid? Where is a cure?..."
My mind is burning itself by infinite ideas, dreams, thoughts, ...all damn of this. And i feel like in this community i have no place to share it.
Someone!! advice me! Where is a society, where i can share my thoughts, ideas, dreams... and not feel like an offtopic. 
Sometimes, when i post my thoughts there, i feel get banned soon.

So, I had one. And getting overwhelmed by absence of someone like me. 
I feel like a stranger there. But if there a someone, who was finished a Wintermute, gathering an every thing... 
Just let me know. This let me feel more than a jerk there.
Thank you!

That's will be great. Just ask and i can tell a lots of stories. Stories about what was happened and what will happens tomorrow. 

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLK2eOgp5YgItJWxH42fbFavHbmffDlkhV

No one want to talk about something strange. Social networks contacts seeking for dating (ewwwwww....)

Years ago I have an VK, facebook accounts, but i didn't find anyone to talk. That's sad times. 

2 minutes ago, Leeanda said:

Im sorry  I'm not explaining myself properly. I meant I don't understand the concept of abstract itself, not you. I would have to get to know you personally before I could do that.   

I have to say that your comments do worry me , there's always something worth staying in reality for, no matter how big or small it is.  

I think that your dreams as you have written them are excellent .. do you do any writing professionally?

 

No, i not a writer. Just an IT staff worker. And dreamer beyond of my job. And i really want to talk to someone, who have a dreams, someone who strange, someone who think different and don't complex about it.

2013.11.15
Came home from work, cooked pilaf, went to bed. I dreamed ... I was driving from a forest estate, fell asleep in the car. I wake up on the street in the courtyard of a residential area. I think "that's nifiga myself." Evening, dusk. I stop a passerby, I ask "where am I?". Says "What are you? Drunk? In St. Petersburg you ...". Here's nothing to yourself. Oh well, I guess I'm on vacation anyway. I will walk for 3 days in St. Petersburg and go back by train. I walk through the yards, look into one of the entrances - in the light of a lamp on the forest
A white horse passes through the wheat field and sits down like a cat in front of the exit from the entrance. Well, I think I went to St. Petersburg ... And in general - what the hell? After all, I wanted to go to Moscow ... I photographed the horse on my mobile phone. Again I turn to passers-by - tell me, what can you see in St. Petersburg? Passers-by are all, I must say, strange - gloomy and taciturn, as if they see spies and bandits everywhere. He says "Well, this one ... If you go, then get out there, you will go out to
 highway, there will be a subway to the left, from where you want to get there. If you want to hear the rustle of the ocean, go," he points to a dark alley, "there you go, you'll get to the port in 20 minutes." I think to myself - I've already heard the rustle of the ocean ... And in general, I should put on a jacket, November, after all. But I didn’t put on my jacket and went to the highway. I braked some cheap hatchback, threw out the driver and drove to the Moscow railway station. The car was moving somehow. After a while, the cabin was filled with smoke
Oh, and I realized that you can’t go far like that. Went from the highway and again wandered into the dark gloomy courtyards. Ahead of the yard, in the twilight light, a tall silhouette of a forested area could be seen. Went there. The smell of the swamp began to be felt, then the murmur of the river was heard. Well, I think that's the rustle of the ocean, yes. Someone came up from behind. I turned around. The face of the approacher was not visible, only a black silhouette. I ask "WHAT IS NECESSARY??". He appears to be deaf. Shove something into my hands
and disappeared into the shadows of dusk. That something was my jacket. I folded my jacket and put it in my bag. I felt a small cube in my bag. Got it, threw it away. An explosion thundered, a bright flash illuminated the edge, briefly pulled the grove out of the dark silhouette of the forest. I think: "Why the hell did I stole uncanned sodium and put it in a bag ?!". I realized that I was standing on the edge of a small ravine, under which the river roared. After the explosion, everything around was covered in smoke. Went back to touch. I stumbled, fell and fell asleep. I wake up on the bench. "Here's a nifiga to myself, dreamed!". Suddenly the bench became soft. I woke up on the couch in my apartment. I say, "That's nifiga myself, I dreamed." And it wasn't over yet...

11 minutes ago, Leeanda said:

Interesting video but I'm honestly a bit stupid  . Sorry I don't understand all that abstract stuff , 

Dont know why I keep dreaming about spiders either. Just wish I didn't.

It's why i was close myself from this reality and hide in The Long Dark. In this world no one understand me. There's no reasons to stay in "reality". Raph was created a world, where i can just exist.
"Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence. And was i learned, whatever state i may be in, therein be content" Helen Keller

9 minutes ago, Leeanda said:

My dreams are normally short and have spiders in them. The worst one was when it crawled into my mouth. 

I feel sad about...(( Are you seen a mesmerizing dreams?

There's no one to tell some of mind-blowing dreams?
So, may because of this, i feeling this reality isn't real. I feel there just only a NPCs around. 
My soul is crying

On 1/30/2022 at 2:48 AM, DiscoJonny said:

WTF?!?
This sounds like you were the star of a pyschological horror film!  
Maybe you should layoff from eating my microwaved pizza, cookies and cheap vodka jello shots before going to bed!

 

Are isn't our lives seems to be a psychological horror films? I feel not even survivor, just a wolfbait. In this world, i feel very disoriented, trying to not believe, what the hell is happening. But I sadly understand, what the hell is happening. And so,
"And I'm a goddamn fool, but then again so are you
And the lion's roar, the lion's roar
And I never really knew what to do"
No, I don't pretend to your pizza and vodka.
I have a beer, f%cking depression and... a wolves around. And I really not know what to do. And why to do? It's seems to be I escaping from a reality to my dreams. And it's seems to be no reasons to stay here, in this reality, anymore. Raph did good. He's created an alternative reality, where I can hide, like an old trapper in his cabin from a deamon bear... And from my f#cking bears, whose hunting me

Sorry for emotions overwhelming. I have no one to talk about

Yet another strange dream.

2019.12.29
In a dream, I watched how civilization was destroyed by the formation of deep karst failures. The Ministry of Emergency Situations, through loudspeakers, urged not to move around the city, so as not to cause further destruction. I look at the dilapidated city from the 9th floor of the hotel where I work. The wall of the hotel was fallen, between the reinforced concrete slabs there are large gaps through which the lower floors can be seen. The guard says "The world will never be the same again. Perhaps this is the end and we ourselves are to blame."

So silent there. We get the cold. We got the deadly COVID-19. We got hungry governments. We got some tea and... meat. We aren't going anywhere...
So, to be honest a bit of storytelling would be a nice distraction right about now.

Yet other of my strange dreams

2021.04.10
Watching news. A speaker reports:
On the outskirts of Chelyabinsk city, a sheer cliff several kilometers deep was formed, on the other hand, smoothly rising to the level
surrounding area about 10 km. The cliff appeared last night completely silently. At the scene from many countries scientists, ufologists, stalkers, diggers, enthusiasts of extreme sports has arrived. Attempts by the Ministry of Emergency Situations and the military to cordon off the territory where an event occurred, were unsuccessful. Whenever someone tried to block access to the scene, show aggression, they literally became a ghost - people and objects passed through them without hindrance, until the moment of cessation of attempts to contain it.
Drones were sent to the bottom of the cliff, where people were found in tattered clothes, but completely unharmed. Scientists and ufologists suggest the technogenic origin of the cliff, as a result of the curvature of space-time.

After some time, many videos appear on youtube, which have gained tens of millions of views. people on video is jumping from a plane without a parachute, shoot themselves in the head, stands in flames and remain unharmed. Head of the All-Russian research public association "Kosmopoisk" Vadim Chernobrov suggests that "during the fall in the resulting cliff, a living organism changes at the level of elementary particles, making it practically invulnerable. After a fall, any damaging factors literally pass through the body without affecting it."

It was also found that people who jump into a cliff do not need air, food, water and stop aging. Tens of thousands of people jumped into the cliff. I did too. The way home from the cliff took three days on foot, but there was no fatigue, no thirst, no hunger at all.

When I get home, I read the news. "Thanks to the latest technology developed by Russian scientists, Russia has colonized
moon. The video below the article shows the moon, on which the relief of the Russian tricolor has been drawn with super-bright spotlights.
"Well, that's it. The moon is gone... They will ruin it soon", I thought.

Over the next week, millions of people jumped into the cliff. The military managed to close the Russian borders, which made it possible to contain world pilgrimage to the cliff. Attempts of military aggression by other countries were immediately stopped by the failure of the military equipment and the panicky refusal of soldiers to participate in hostilities.

On the eighth day, suddenly jumping off a cliff stopped making people invulnerable. People who jumped into a precipice were crushed to death.
Nevertheless, for about a month from all over the country, those wishing to gain immortality was gathered there. As a result, at the bottom of the cliff formed a mountain of corpses, the population of the country decreased by 70%, while the average IQ per citizen of the Russian Federation increased by 60%. A month later, a cliff and a corpses are gone. At the place of the former cliff there is a plain, trees, roads, houses, power lines... As if nothing had happened.

Nevertheless, tens of millions of people remained immortal, the dead 70% of the country's population disappeared forever along with the cliff. Scientists suggest that a week after the appearance of the cliff, the opposite effect of compensation began - tens of millions of people made immortal by the death of hundreds of millions of people. The origin of the break remains unknown.

Ok, there's one of my weird dreams. 2007.11.24. A seven years before a The Long Dark first release. Sorry for language, I've used a google translate

Late fall. The sky is overcast with a dark gray mist. Fresh air, fresh wind. Around the gray forest in the fog. Gray trees, withered, as if covered with ash, leaves that have already fallen and cover the gray, dry earth. A quiet rumble of wind is heard, interfering with the leaves with dust (or ashes?). The atmosphere here is strange. And around - no one ...
But I like it here. Perhaps because I am alone here and no one / nothing interferes with my thoughts.
"Is it me?" - a strange thought... Yes, who am I?...
Then the thought broke off: What is this ... this ... an indescribable feeling ... Extraneous thoughts ... Someone else is here!
I turn around and see a brown bear. I don't think he noticed me. I start to back away from the bear, trying to hide behind rare, dead trees... A branch crackled. Extraneous thoughts took on an eerie character for me, in a daze I continue to back away from the bear, which, having paid attention to the crunch of a branch broken under my boot, lazily but unambiguously walked in my direction. Stumbling over branches, I began to retreat faster...
Extraneous thoughts fell upon me with incredible horror! A moment later, I turned around and noticed two more bears, who a moment ago noticed me and moved towards me in the same way.
Now the bears were advancing on me from two sides ...
I went to the right, away from the bears, the bears picked up the pace. I ran...
Dry branches broke underfoot, leaves rustling softly and turned to dust/ash...
The forest was slowly replaced by a swamp .. The next step - I caught on to something, fell.
I looked around - there were no bears anymore, and ... the atmosphere became even more strange, now - filled with some kind of darkness, causeless fear ...
Looking around, I realized that I was lying in the center of some kind of crater or funnel in a swampy area.
What?!... What are electrical outlets doing here?!.. Some wires are connected to some of them. I flipped the red switch to the ON position. All over the area of the funnel, souls began to rise in various forms of the ethereal state: Ghosts, shadows, foggy clots .... They all swam in my direction, something touched me - it became cold, everything turned into darkness, I lost consciousness.

I'm at home, washing my hands. Suddenly I notice that the soap gets stuck in my hands. Weird...
At that moment, I saw the forest again, the funnel where I had been a moment ago...
I see myself there, in the center of the funnel.
I look at my hands. Oh God!! My hands are blue-gray, skin peeling off along with what was once meat. And then I understand: I'm still there, in the funnel...

What is your almost strangest dreams?

There, in the Russia, a quite appocalypse was happens a long time ago)
Desolation point: Forsaken area near Saint-Peterburg's city
Forlorn muskeg, broken railroad and maintenance yard somewhere in the north of the Russia

Raph... You said you would and you did. But where is a case saunas?...

When my big work cabinet looks like a dark, slightly cold and cozy... Window is covered by dark-brown curtains, that not let a light through... A chilling winter athmosphere coming from opened window... And my cabinet is placed in the abandoned side of building, where a construction beyond a door, eternal and forsaken for more than 10 years... "Sure, I do" (c)Jeremiah

Yep, I'm an IT staff, so there's no light at my cabinet, just only from huge 27" display of my work PC)

On 1/15/2022 at 1:17 PM, Roberto Tomba said:

I live in Michigan. We're the warm, southern neighbors of our Canadian brothers in Ontario. It gets cold in the winter...usually not as cold as it gets in the game, but it's still pretty cold. I always like to immerse myself in the games I like to play. For whatever reason, I decided to start playing the game with the windows open in the winter. Some days, it's not too bad. Today, it's 11°F (-11°C). With the wind chill, it feels like it's -4°F (-20°C). I wear a hoodie when I play, but it's still pretty damn cold. I like the cold room when I'm playing because it makes my situation feel more real, and more desperate. 

I play in a room where I can close the door. That way, it doesn't set off the thermostat and overheat the rest of the house. I play after my wife's gone to bed. One time, she walked in the room , and wondered why it was so cold. I explained it to her, and she looked at me like I was insane. Maybe she's right. 

Hah) Seems to be oddly familiar) My wife sometimes called me insane also)) But I live in Russia, where a cold winter nights equals to Canadian. There's a "The Long Dark" athmosphere, just open a window)
A chilling smell of snow, cold, dark and infinity of entire universe... 
At 31 december of 2021 I've bought a Xiaomi RGB smart LED bulb, program it to light like a "The Long Dark metal lamp" during Aurora borealis. It's making an amazing athmosphere) 
No, I see no insanity in the overwhelming imagination. It's great, it's brings me calm and tranquility.

Finally an episode 4 has been released.

My first experience: "Not sure why I feel so stupid...". IMHO, The Long Dark, the Open World game with a lots of ways to finish a mission, turns to "Yet Other B[censored] Consumers Approved". There's no more need to think, to try, to make something by yourself. Now, just "Follow the blizzard line..." and you reach another... point. No variants. No thoughts. Just go, go... Even a warmth/weariness/thirst/hunger conditions don't matters anymore on a linear "blizzard line".
The Long Dark episode 4 go a way like "Walking dead" TV series. From something amazing to something banal. Something simple, like banana. 
I very-very hope that I wasn't right. I'll try to go through tomorrow. But I have a bad feeling...

On 5/4/2021 at 10:54 AM, GimletInternet said:

Welcome, Anthony!

Very thank you! :)