Mroz4k

I am straight up terrified to post a single comment anywhere on the forums.

It takes 3 warning points that never expire to obtain a permanent ban on the forums. I have gotten two of those points in the last temporary ban for something I have not done. Instead, for many days I was berated and harassed by a different forum member, first directly through messages, then later via endless reporting of my posts (at least I suspect so, there is no way to prove that). Or, it may have been a biased admin, monitoring me so closely & pushing me with endless public warnings just to unnerve me until I did something that could be considered against rules. I don't even want to consider that possibility, cause if that's true, I have earned myself a permanent ban...

There is nothing I can do to report such harassment. But instead, my personal advice to help others improve their forum content is being reviewed as moderating & telling people how to post (HOW??! Never did I say "you have to do this!", I made a suggestion to do it differently, and explained why!), and the fact that I get more influence on the forums is considered as "establishing authority" on the forums. (I have no authority here!!! And I cant stop that I get more influence because I post more, that is how it works. Experienced community member is a form of influencer). What is even more sad is that I used this influence for good things, to help breathe in life to the very stagnant forums by encouraging more discusssions and for people to spend more time in here. (Unlike the same person I suspect of mass-reporting me, who has been going around, claiming things Hinterland said without pointing into where they said it, which is an actual moderating, and showing their influence around as a badge of authority to boost their ego.)

I have integrity, I made promises not to escalate things with this said user to prevent escalation, and for that, I earned myself harassment and eventually ban. Meanwhile this person continues to defile this community and noone can say anything about it. 

For months I was a part of this community and it was never a problem. This person comes back and suddenly, everything I do is a problem. Id say the cause of all the problems would be the "recent" change, the person coming back, the cause and effect would point towards that. 

If I do get banned, the rest of you be careful. It is just a matter of time till this person picks a different target, perhaps because you upset them, and this whole situation will repeat again with a different victim. Free speech posting is no longer as safe on the forums as it used to be.

I would ask for more transparency with reporting, how it is done, how it is considered, what are the chief decision factors. And abuse of reporting to harass and berate others for revenge or other personal bias should be strictly prohibited by the Forum rules, othervise this cannot be a friendly community, because it takes one angry, self-righteous prick to mass-report all you do to put the admins on your back and strangle you with warnings and endless observations. How can a normal person not feel depressed, stressed and desperate when everything they do is being put under the microscope?

I thought taking more time off from getting unbanned before posting would help, I slept twice since then and I dont feel any closer to knowing what to do. 

I admit that I am scared, desperate, stressed and I feel abused and violated, and hopeless because there is nothing I can do about it.