Lost all my loot?

[jubiboobie]

I’m playing on Xbox one x, survival pilgrim mode and am currently at black rock prison. I got to the door w the code needed, but dropped off ALL of my loot even before roll so i could harvest all of the heavy batteries. I come back, and all of my loot is gone? No longer on top of the steps right at the door. 
 

anyone else who experience this? Losing of loot?! I’ve never. Needless to say, i will need to start a new game, and am already 140 days in since I can’t survive wo my bed roll along with other previous loot. 
 

I restarted and went back to my last save; it’s still not there. 
 

Truly distraught and pretty broken up about this.